Monthly Archives: November 2009

complexity of light and darkness

From a brightly lit room came the sudden transition to darkness. This typically happens when one enters the movie house. The sudden shock to the eyes temporarily blinds the individual. One immediately feel for the darkness and wait till his eyes gets accustomed to it. It will take a few seconds or even a full minute for someone to adjust his vision to the widespread darkness of the room.
Or when one had long remained in a dark place and then goes to an area floodlight with a bright light, he too gets blinded temporarily. Will also require seconds or a minute of adjustment before he could plainly see the sight he is into.
Light and darkness is a very complex balance. Its relationship makes and breaks the individuals empire.
A Greek philosopher once went out in a broad day light in the middle if the city with a lighted candle in his hand. People laughed at him and they said, “Who can ever recognize a candle in the light of day. If you wish to be seen with that candle in hand, then walk in the midst of darkness and the coldness of night.”
One may wish to shine, one may wish to be noticed and appreciated but in the world of bright flashbulbs of conspiracy and indifference, of frustrations, and isolation, isn’t it wise just to stay behind as a light in the dark path?
What I believe is that I may be denoted by the night. Am never perfect neither do i dreaming of the light, am happy with the little dark corner I am right now. Because when I start to shine, I am sure that with the darkness around me, I can be a prominent light.
Be in life, in love, in business or in other quest, don’t chase the speeding train. You will have a time for yourself to shine. What is important is lighting your wick, and walking proudly in a dimly lit path.


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My friend himani once exclaimed that ‘celebrations have no meaning without few special people’. Today on my 19th bday I can feel the emotions behind this statement. It’s about 12:30 and my phone is constantly flashing notifications for new message. But since the very first call I answered, I a craving for a call from my best friend. It’s my third bday without her and m feeling awful. Some where deep in my heart it’s hurting me. I am missing those bdays which I celebrated with her. Those sweet memories are constantly dripping thru my eyes. I still have those 2 teddies safely which she gifted me. Am in no mood to celebrate my bday anymore. Wishing to get over it sooner.


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many lives, many masters

These days I am reading this book called ‘many lives, many masters’ by dr. brain weiss. The book is about past life regression. The way things (relations, situation, fear, skills, profession etc) in our present are linked to our past life. And as I am moving ahead with this book, I am feeling quite disturbed. This past life thing have started bugging me. Thoughts which are presently bothering me are..will the people I love in this life will be with me in next life? Which county will I be residing in my next birth? What relationship will I have with those people I know in present life? Where we ever together in past life? What was I in my past life? I just want to have same people all around me in my next life also. A single thought of being away from these people bought a tear into my eye. Am just feeling pathetic. But at the same time book gave me an answer to my question. The reason that I bonds so well is because of the relation we used to share in our previous life. The reason to my biggest fear is something which was wrong in last life. Its uncomfortable to think that we even had a past life and we will again land on this same planet earth. One day I will surely try this past life regression thing so that I can get answer to the questions which are presently disturbing me.

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